Commitment

There are many people in the world that have a myriad of different emotional issues. Commitment can be a very difficult and sensitive subject. Unfortunately I have dated, and even married, men that end up getting scared or having issues down the line with this topic. This time my now ex-boyfriend decided to pre-emptively breakup with the fear of not wanting to commit later and not ready to move on to the next level. After only a few months he decided to make this decision. I am obviously heartbroken as this decision. There is never a good time to do this, don’t get me wrong, but when you have something important the next day I would think thats a more wrong time. I ended up not getting any sleep that night which caused me to lack in my obligations. So at this point I am heartbroken AND pissed!

I asked him later why it had to be that night and not wait until after my important scheduling. He said he hadn’t even thought about it affecting them and was greatly apologetic. I then also said that most people break up with someone before the holidays like this when they just cant stand being with the person even one more day. He said he wasn’t thinking about that and had intended to wait another week but that’s just what happened when he called that night.

Now I explain all of this to show how a healthy breakup can look like.

He now says he loves me and truly just isn’t ready. Now I have a choice to make. Do I sit and wait and wallow or pick myself up and keep living my life? I take it day by day and eventually there will be enough days to allow me to move on or at least want to move on.

Brokenhearted

Love is such a gamble. I have and still believe its worth trying to find. I have had many heartaches including two divorces. My most recent heartbreak was tonight. For four and a half months and even though there were issues I felt they were resolveable. We met each others family and they all liked us. Then I dont hear from him for almost two days which sent my imagination loose obviously. He worked alot of hours so I assumed just being inconsiderate on his part. Then he called and broke it off. No warning of anykind. His friends nor my friends understood. I still cant believe it happened. I cant sleep now and have to get up early. Nice try going to sleep now so I might as well write it out. Writing is supposed to be good therapy right? I dont know. It doesnt take the pain and loss away. Its the not knowing why that makes it harder than it is already.

Please put people out of their misery no matter how hard it is and tell them a real reason.