The holiday season brings up many emotions for people either good or bad. This time of year can bring them intensely which can be hard to sort and distinguish. I have had quite a bit this year and has been challenging. All my counseling over the years has really helped by using the tools they taught me and making me empowered to work thru everything.
I was part of layoffs at my job in June and had a tough time staying positive sometimes but just focused on my passion by getting my certifications in Personal Training, Nutrition and Life Coaching. I also got my website up and started with plenty more to continuously add at https://michelle.fitness/. I have good friends who supported me when I had questions on which direction to take with the best way to handle my finances and job offers. I was very thankful to find a wonderful new job with more pay in a great industry, oil and gas. The people are wonderful and so nice and my boss and immediate coworkers are great and fun to work with everyday. Those are so much more important than the pay sometimes.
Towards the end of my unemployment my dad passed away August 20th. There are mixed emotions about this as I didn’t have a relationship with him at that point. I had expressed my feelings to him explaining my reasons in July of last year. I am sad of course but there was a surprising relief that has not changed. Now my mom asks and needs my help and it can be hard sometimes to be there after our history. We will see where this journey brings us now for the future. I know this isn’t how you are supposed to feel in this situation and it has been hard to admit but I know im not alone with having “unnatural” reactions and feelings to situations. I feel like I should share to help someone else.
It has really opened my eyes even more to how much greater my freedom really is in life. Life is not guaranteed and so what is it you really want out of life? What is holding you back and why? Sometimes we hold back because of lack of acceptance from society or even our friends. Other times its fear of failure or embarrassment if things don’t work out accordingly. Stigmas society and our friends have placed on us can be very limiting without us even knowing and realizing. I have 2 amazingly accepting best girlfriends and a few other girlfriends that I can be open and honest with no judgement. This is a rare thing that you should hold on to when you find them in your life.
We are so careful not to hurt peoples feelings or put ourselves out there too much for fear of seeming bitchy or egotistical or selfish. Well if we aren’t standing up for ourselves then who will in this life? There are definite boundaries that are crossed that are unnecessary in this journey but only you know where those are for your situations. Sometimes its ok to appear as the above mentioned names because there are people that will be jealous or hateful because of their own shortcomings. This is not your concern, its their journey to be accountable.
Finding someone to help navigate with your journey can be helpful. If you don’t have that someone in your life I am here to help with any journey, from finances to career and even relationships of any kind. I have been there and have helped others as well with the options each direction can take so you can make a decision with eyes wide open. No one should tell you what to do but talking about and knowing the options of each choice is empowering.
I will go into more detail about my dad in a later blog when I am ready.
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